Topic: Sad news

[MysticGohan]

I know you guys have known me for awhile, I've been on and off again. I post mostly here, so forgive
me if this is in the wrong board.

I just need all the emotional support I can get. My angel was in a fight against metastize breast cancer, she passed away yesterday. I loved her dearly, and now I'm at a lost. I've known her for 15 years. She meant the world to me.

I have so much sadness in my heart, I thought she could beat this.

I love her dearly.

[Caterkiller]

I'm sorry to hear that man. We were just miiversing about this earlier yesterday... I wish I had known years in advanced then maybe I could have been of some help.

You have my condolences.

[NWR_insanolord]

Not to be offensive, but this really doesn't belong in Console Discussion. I'll move it over to General Chat.

[MysticGohan]

hence my apologies in advance. More people would see it here and I didn't know any better place than the one I post the most.

[Khushrenada]

I really am deeply sorry for you and for such awful news.

If I knew how to say something to take away your grief, I'd tell it to you but no one has found a way yet.

All I can tell you is from the times we played Mafia and you posted frequently on these boards, I've always liked you because you've always come across as a genuinely nice person. If you loved her dearly, then I'm sure she was someone also as friendly and warm-hearted as you. I'm truly sorry for such an outcome to have happened to her and for you and everyone else involved.

If you need an outlet and this forum can help in some small way, by all means, use it as you feel necessary. If you need to talk about it, we'll listen.

[MysticGohan]

Thanks Khush, I loved playing mafia with you guys, some crazy hijinx. I love her beyond words can express. Thanks so much. It hurts alot, and her family are in pain from the loss as well.

She truly was my angel.

[Oblivion]

Oh my gosh... I cannot even fathom what you are going through right now. I don't know you whatsoever but you have my condolences.


Damn.

[mysticgohan]

Thanks guys, I appreciate everyone here. Just so sad she's gone, she really started going down since late last month. I clinged on
to the hope that cannabis oil would save her. chemo failed her, her doctors had poor bedside manner and her primary told her she was going to die because she was terminal. This is no way to treat someone who needs compassion.

I love her and have been with her every inch of the way. It hurts to see her go, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't an emotional mess.

She was my love and life, really miss her. She made me laugh and was always there when needed. She always tried to do the best she could. She was a very kind and sweet woman. I wish we could have more time together, she was more family to me than my own. She was my love and I could talk to her and vice versa.

I'm at a lost, I feel alone not having her around and having to go to a house without her.

[Plugabugz]

My dad died a few weeks ago. He went from "my foot hurts" to being gone in the space of 3 weeks. I know exactly what you're feeling right now. His funeral was only last week.

The most important thing to remember is to smile, they are always with you. Even if not physically.

[lolmonade]

I'm so sorry for your loss.  Me experiencing this with my wife is probably one of my worst fears.  Just remember there's no 'wrong' way to greive a loss like this, so approach it the way that best lets you cope (other than self-harm, I hope).
 
I don't know you well, but you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. 

[azeke]

I, too, lost a family member just this last week. Really makes you think. Puts things into perspective.

In fact i was listening to telethon right after coming home from cemetery. I guess i needed it.

My condolences to everyone who lost their loved ones.

[Fatty The Hutt]

So awful. I am so sorry for your terrible loss. I can not imagine what you are going through. If I lost my wife (of 20 years) I would be devastated.
I am glad you are reaching out to us, as a community centered around games, having fun and happier times. I hope all the goofiness around here makes you smile a bit, though it will be hard for a long time, I expect.
I also hope you are getting counselling. You need it. Seeking therapy and counselling are additional tools to help combat your devastating grief. Also, try to stay healthy, get rest, exercise and eat. Trite reminders but likely important at this critical time.
Lastly, if there's anything internet friends like us can do to help, say the word.

[mysticgohan]

Thanks everyone, it means alot. Thanks Catakiller for your miiverse posts, really wish We could had more time together, but the surgery that was supposed to help her, really didn't nor did chemo.

Everyday hurts that she's not here, I'll miss making her coffee, playing games with her, just my everday life with her.
She was looking forward to the new mario game. She was just so frail and in pain to do anything. God.... it hurts, I love her so much.

I wish we could've gotten married, I'll deeply miss her. It hurts so much, I lost my Mom when I was 15, I lost my love of 15 years.

[nickmitch]

Sorry to hear about your loss. You my sincerest condolences. I know dealing with loss can be tough, but I'll keep you in my prayers.

[mysticgohan]

Thanks guys, it's hard to bare the sadness.  Just hurts so much, I'm completely lost without her. She's always on my mind and my heart breaks. She so wanted to go home with me, I wish we could've. She passed away on the 38th anniversary of her mom's passing.

God know's I'll miss her, I just can't get over that she's gone.

[Khushrenada]

Unfortunately, you may never get over that. It will probably be months before you even begin to feel like normal again. It's a rocky road to lose someone that close and it will really be one day at a time for awhile. You are mentioning a lot of regrets or things you would have like to have done. You'll probably think a lot about that for now but don't let it ruin you and forget to think about the things you were able to do together. In time, remembering more of those moments will help ease the pain of the loss and let you thoughts stay fondly about her.

[ShyGuy]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.

[Wah]

May the Aura be with You Friend.

[MysticGohan]

Thanks guys, just can't express my sorrow enough. It's hard talking to people around me.

She meant alot, my heart just sunk. It was hard letting her go at the hospital, I did my best to help her recover.

I just don't feel right without her.

[nickmitch]

I remember when my mom passed, and I felt a lot like what you're feeling now.  It was so hard to just keep going, but at the end of the day, I knew I had to. 

I know it seems hard, or near impossible, but you absolutely can move forward. It doesn't mean forgetting, it means continuing to live.

[MysticGohan]

I know, but it's never easy. She was legendary, she made me feel so much after so long of depression dealing with my mother's death and taking care of siblings. It was a very emotional time, and this just feels far worse, and I really loved my mom.

[MysticGohan]

Hey Guys, thanks for being supportive. I'm back at our home, it's been a rough month since her passing, I love her beyond words. It's been rough each day, everything just reminds me of her. I just got over the flu, with temperatures over 103.6, it was hell. But I'm back to feeling normal, what can be considered normal.

I've got an appointment on the 8Th of January to see a specialists for cancer, one which my primary doctor arranged to get done, as I'm approaching the age that cancer took my mom at. Can't lie and say I'm not nervous, of which I am.

I have a health directive and a Will just in case anything happens. I'm lost, I love my angel, a nick name she always had and one I've always been fond of. I know she's in a better place, I hope there's a heaven and that there's a place for me by her side.

Had a lot of bad things happen to me in my childhood life and left me feeling uncertain about church and religion. She was the same way, she believed in God, Jesus and Heaven, she was raised Catholic. Me, I've been Baptist, Methodists and Catholic, I've been to each church. I just believe in God, that there is a higher power.

I just want to be with her should anything happen to me. I miss her so much. I did my best to give her kids a good Christmas, I gave her son The Last of Us for PS3 and a FSU beanie hat, and her Daughter a plaque in a shape of a heart with butterflies with the words "Mom is another word for Love" and a 18" diamond sterling silver 3D heart pendant with the word Mom in the center. I gave her grandson a blutooth headset for his 360 and cellphone, and dragonball raging blast 2. Since he loves DBZ. I bought her daughter's boyfriend a saltwater fishing kit, I got one of her sister's 36 bars of kit kats, as she really loves them and the other I got a freshwater pearl necklace and silver sterling earrings.  All from me and my angel, I got a couple Christmas presents. But all in all it just didn't feel much like Christmas without her. Everyone loved their gifts.

I hope She had a great Christmas in heaven, lord knows how much I love her and miss her.

[Fatty The Hutt]

Keep your chin up, man. It is nearly a new year!
Nice you have an appointment with a specialist but I hope you also have an appointment with a therapist. You need counselling. I am not trying to be a jerk here or kid you with a sitcom punchline, you seriously need counselling. Don't delay on this or try to do the "guy" thing and think it is some sort of weakness. It's not. Go.

[MysticGohan]

I have counseling in place, however it's nice to talk to, at the end of the day it doesn't help with the pain. Everything reminds me of her and everything we did together. It's hard, I never had counseling when my mom passed away, I was 15 at the time, I had my siblings and dad to take care of. Not that I asked to, I just got put into that position and eventually felt I wasn't appreciated and dealt with my emotions and loss alone.

You're cool Fatty, I'm just lost and unsure what to do. I hate people pressuring me that it'll be ok, you'll find someone new. That is something I do not like hearing, I lost someone who was a big part of my life, I do not want to find a replacement, as no one can take her place. The thought irks me, I love her and I wouldn't feel right with anyone else.

[Stratos]

First of all, hang in there. I've been wrestling with how or even if I should respond to this, deleting multiple posts I've tried to make. Nothing sounded appropriate. Should I send words of comfort? Encouragement? I've been moved to a loss of words. I'm recently married myself and the thought of losing my other half is frightening and difficult to face. I can only imagine the pain and sorrow you face.


Don't let anyone pressure you to make any major decisions. Right now, you are hurting. It is your time to mourn and to process what has happened. The last thing you should do is make a major decision while your emotions are running high. And most likely there is nothing that can't wait for you to decide on for a bit. Granted, you don't want to become mired in your pain, but nothing is wrong taking it easy for several months to regain some form of footing. It's sure not going to 'get better' or 'become like it used to'.


My wife and I will keep you in our prayers.