Author Topic: Sad news (Read 14015 times)

MysticGohan · « **Reply #25 on:** December 30, 2013, 07:39:30 PM »

Thanks Stratos, it means a lot. There's a lot baring down my shoulders. She was my first and only love, We could've had a child but she miscarried 3 months in. Very few people know this, it hurt both of us. She's my angel, I love her and I miss her. I wish she was still here, she was a great woman. She was always close to my heart.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #26 on:** January 20, 2014, 10:18:52 PM »

Hey Guys, I got the results from an MRI I had it's bad news. I have abnormalities in the brain and fluid building up, the Doctor is concerned and their making an appointment with a neurologists.

I'm not sure what to do, it would explain most of the pain I'm having. Just not the news I was expecting, but had thought something was wrong and suggested and mri to my Doc. Here we are

UncleBob · « **Reply #27 on:** January 20, 2014, 10:19:28 PM »

BlackNMild2k1 · « **Reply #28 on:** January 20, 2014, 10:35:26 PM »

;_;

Sorry to hear that. But maybe it turns out to not be as bad as you think.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #29 on:** January 20, 2014, 11:01:03 PM »

Hopefully bnm, but to be honest I'm not sure what to think. I never been through anything like this, and I've been suffering pains for some time. I hope everything will be ok.

Fatty The Hutt · « **Reply #30 on:** January 21, 2014, 02:45:36 PM »

Not good news that you have an issue but very good news you are having it treated. Prognosis is good.
Keep us posted. Your internet friends like you!

Stratos · « **Reply #31 on:** January 21, 2014, 07:32:06 PM »

I wish I knew more of what those symptoms meant. I've become a bit of a health nut over the past two and a half years but I'm not terribly knowledgeable on the brain specifically. If I do come across anything I will pass it on to you if you are interested in suggestions.

The important thing is to hang in there and not give up hope. A large part of your fight will be psychological.

Still praying for you. If you ever want any extra encouragement you are always free to drop me a line.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #32 on:** January 21, 2014, 09:13:36 PM »

Thanks guys, much appreciated. It's been very hard these last few month. Losing my Angel was the hardest thing I've ever gone through. I now know how she felt, the day she got the news she had cancer

I just hope they can explain more to me what this means and what it means to me and my life.

Would explain the pressure I've been feeling in my head, the shooting pains in my legs, left arm and breast, the coldness and numb tingling feelings, pains shooting down my back.

I had pains for years, but never thought that this could be the culprit, and it really showed it's head months before my angel passed away. I just hope it's not cancer, my mom's side seems to be cursed with getting cancer.

nickmitch · « **Reply #33 on:** January 21, 2014, 10:31:07 PM »

Keeping you in my prayers, man.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #34 on:** January 22, 2014, 01:12:11 AM »

Thanks man, You guys are the best!

MysticGohan · « **Reply #35 on:** January 24, 2014, 06:26:10 PM »

I have an appointment scheduled for the 10th of February with the neurologist. My primary doctor wants me to have a followup after the appointment and inform him what the neurologist tells me, and if I need anything to call them.

This has be a little worried from the sound of the medical assistant's voice. Hopefully all will go well, although I'm not sure what to expect. Hopefully while I'm there, I can get a copy of the MRI results.

BlackNMild2k1 · « **Reply #36 on:** January 24, 2014, 06:55:27 PM »

They don't seem to make this sound very urgent, more precautionary, so I wouldn't put too much thought into something I can't fix or change.

Just continue to live everyday to the fullest, and have no worries, because stress only makes matters worse, never better.

Khushrenada · « **Reply #37 on:** January 24, 2014, 11:35:50 PM »

Yeah, I'm hoping things go well for you. If anyone needs a break from bad news, it is you. It just seems like you are getting hit with nothing but stress, worry and sadness and just constantly be bombarded with that can be even worse than just having an illness. Keep us informed, MysticGohan.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #38 on:** January 25, 2014, 12:15:16 AM »

I will guys, it bothers me on alot of levels as what the cause is if any. I was born premature by 3months, I was physically man handled by my older cousin at 6 or 7 and thrown with my back against the wall. I fell 6 to 8 feet off the side of an apartment when the step rotted away and I fell off to the side and landed on the backside of my skull, my neck went crunch, I lost vision for a few mins and could not move. That was a decade ago. I just hope this doctor knows what he's doing. No offense but I dislike foreign doctors, they seem to want to know personal stuff like some kind of pedophile and you can't understand a thing they're saying as everything sounds like bad english being butchered with no pause in between sentences.

Khushrenada · « **Reply #39 on:** January 25, 2014, 01:26:45 AM »

Quote from: MysticGohan on January 25, 2014, 12:15:16 AM

I will guys, it bothers me on alot of levels as what the cause is if any. I was born premature by 3months, I was physically man handled by my older cousin at 6 or 7 and thrown with my back against the wall. I fell 6 to 8 feet off the side of an apartment when the step rotted away and I fell off to the side and landed on the backside of my skull, my neck went crunch, I lost vision for a few mins and could not move. That was a decade ago. I just hope this doctor knows what he's doing. No offense but I dislike foreign doctors, they seem to want to know personal stuff like some kind of pedophile and you can't understand a thing they're saying as everything sounds like bad english being butchered with no pause in between sentences.

Nah, I get it. If you have a regular physician to use for check-ups or other needs, you can have to talk about information that might be intimate about yourself and something you wouldn't normally share with other people. That's why there is doctor confidentiality. For me, if I'm going to talk to someone about these things, I'd like it to be someone I can understand and who probably has a similar background like me so that there isn't any culture confusion and you can just relate better with them.

For the most part, I've moved around a lot in life and then have never really had much in regards for poor health so I hadn't bothered in going to a doctor since school. Lately, I had been thinking that maybe I should just swallow the medicine and find a doctor and get some check-ups done and make sure of my health even if I have to suffer a few indignities in order to do that. Looking up doctors who were accepting new patients, I found one close by my area and gave him a shot. As it worked out, he was just who I was looking for and I am quite happy with his bedside manner and care and have full confidence in him from the few appointments I've had with him.

I think you need to have that relationship and trust with your physician because if you don't, then you are never going to be sure of anything he recommends or prescribes and always having doubt about things means you'll never be sure of your health and questioning what sort of shape you really are in. If it isn't working for you, then I think it is in your best interest to find a doctor who will work for you. If you are familiar with Star Trek, I'd say you sort of want to have the doctor relationship of a Kirk and McCoy. (Or if you are really fortunate, a Picard and Crusher doctor/patient/and other benefits relationship).

MysticGohan · « **Reply #40 on:** January 25, 2014, 03:01:27 AM »

Oh it's not intimate, it's the question of what I do for a living, and feel like I'm being looked down upon as I'm on disability. And asking questions of where I'm from, it's just not what I'm accustomed to with a typical american doctor.

And questions regarding sex bothers me, especially when asked by a guy. Without getting into details, I've been abused in life so such things make me uncomfortable with those of the same gender. Only my angel ever made me feel comfortable, she relates to me more than anyone I know, even my own family. God knows I miss her.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #41 on:** February 07, 2014, 01:50:50 AM »

Ok I had my colonelcy and everything looks good, they want to followup in 2 weeks.

Now the bigger issue will be this Monday when I see the neurologist and see about getting a copy of the mri.

I miss her guys, not a day goes by that I don't breakdown and cry, she was so close to my heart. Like nobody has ever been. Trying to make the best of my days as well as I can, which can be hard being I'm alone the 85% of the time.

I hope she's doing well and she's happy, god knows I miss her and my heart aches.

Oblivion · « **Reply #42 on:** February 07, 2014, 04:48:53 AM »

...****. This whole thread makes me sad. My condolences for some of the fucked up **** that's been happening in your life, man. Hope you make it through alright.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #43 on:** February 07, 2014, 05:03:10 AM »

I will try my best Oblivion, it's what I've been doing my whole life. Just losing her has been the single hardest thing in my life. I loved her unconditionally, just hard going through this and not have her by my side. I miss my daily routine with her, it was a life to be around her.

There are days I question why I'm here and she's not? I'd give anything to have her back! I truly loved her more than life itself.

nickmitch · « **Reply #44 on:** February 07, 2014, 07:02:38 PM »

Try and keep yourself busy, that helped me out a lot after my mom passed. Spending time with friends and family, while doing your best to keep a smile on and live in the moment can really help.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #45 on:** February 08, 2014, 01:56:36 AM »

I have a hard time there nick, I have no family around, none that are blood. I only have her family, and I find myself alone 85% of the time. I do the best I can, she was my life, she was there for me when my family wasn't. She loved and accepted me.

it's the most love I've ever had. She's an angel.

BlackNMild2k1 · « **Reply #46 on:** February 08, 2014, 02:06:16 AM »

After my grandpa died, I started a new job, buried myself in work and worked as many hours as they would let me sit at my desk. Almost 1 year to the day later, I started a new better job and did the exact same thing well past my grieving period because it still motivated me to work hard (my grandpa was a very hard worker, up to near the end) and make him proud.

So I suggest you do something that she would know makes you happy, something that would make her proud, and do it to the best of your abilities, for yourself and in her honor. It will keep you occupied and hopefully productive and you can put yourself at ease because you know she is looking down, watching over you and smiling.

MysticGohan · « **Reply #47 on:** February 11, 2014, 03:06:27 AM »

Went to my appointment with the neurologist, who seemed oblivious of the mri I had done. Told me it's probably old and I have a pinch nerve in my neck, he asked the same questions, which were already answered. I get prescribed two different pain medications, which upon looking up have some serious side effects. Just great! They want me to come back next week so they can run a nerve test in my arm, by placing a needle in my muscle and send electric pulses. good times!

Both me and Lori think the guy's an idiot. I saw my primary today as well, he told me that the technician over seeing the mri subtly noted that there was an abnormal amount of fluid over the brain, while not an immediate threat, it's a cause for concern. They will go over the mri with the neurologist and get his expertise

MysticGohan · « **Reply #48 on:** March 01, 2014, 10:54:48 PM »

Seen my Neurologist he did and EVG, nerve tests on both hand, my left arm and neck. Not the most pleasant experience I can tell you. My left hand had slower response to electrical currents than the right. The Doctor stuck needles into muscles and asked me to move up, it was painful due to the needle being right in the direction he was asking me to move.

Think I had a better time with an electric fence. He thinks I have a pinched nerve in my neck, or a bad vertebrae, so I had another MRI done on the neck, upper spine yesterday. Doctor dismisses the subtle Hydrocephalus that was shown in the MRI of the Brain, stating it's congenital and it has to be old from premature birth. Which is rather prude to assume, being there's nothing old to compare it to to make that statement correct.

He want's me to keep taking these pills that I have felt have no real effect, it's been 3+ weeks now. And still no answers on what's affecting me.

I still miss my angel, everyday. Just miss her.

Stratos · « **Reply #49 on:** March 01, 2014, 11:31:01 PM »

If you don't feel that the pills are working, you could always stop taking them and see how your body reacts. Doctors tend to be very reactive and do a lot of (educated) guess work with it comes to medicating. I discovered this through a friend who was clinically depressed and the doctor basically admitted he tries one common med after another until the right one works. If you feel worse then go back onto the pills.

Or look up what are in the pills and then search for natural things that can have a similar effect. Wont work for some of the heavy chemical stuff, but if it is something found in nature then got for that in a type of food you can easily eat.

Do you talk to people about your beloved? You could also write letters to her. You never know if she is watching down from heaven and can read it from over your shoulder. Plus the act of writing down your feelings can be quite therapeutic and help ease a troubled heart.

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Author Topic: Sad news (Read 14015 times)