im on the same page(s) as Insanolord, Deguello, and Dasmos
Realistically i want a stabile job making decent income to get by without worrying about finances and have enough free time to enjoy all my hobies, one of which is creating music. I'd also like to share my time with someoen special whom I could spend all my time with. Basically, I don't want to be with someone and worry if they're "the one" ya know?
My BIG dream is to be a proffesional, touring, musician so i can see the world while having fun with my music.
As for the other part of the question: Although I'm usually pretty confident with my creative skills when it comes to music, lately life has just beaten me into a depression that i can't seem to get out of. It's not a severe depression or anything, but for the past few years any time i pick up my guitar and try to play something new, something to distract me from everything around me, I hit a wall and don't like what's coming out. I'll try to play all the songs I first learned back when i was 16 to try to get back into that state of mind when i was a kid, and i just can't. Now I just look at my guitar, wanting to play.
I think the other thing that gets me down about playing music is i've been in a few bands already and none of them really worked. No one's ever on the same page when it came to what to play and it pissed me off. Sometimes I think I'd be better off creating music on my own but I don't have/cant afford the proper equipment for that nor do I have the space for it in my current living situation. Besides, I don't want to be that person. I don't want to look for musicians to play MY tunes, I want to collaberate with a band. I want the music to come from each and every member, not just one person.
I still have hope that one day i'll be able to create again, even if its just for myself.
DOODY! sorry that post felt too serious