Topic: Confess your secrets here.

[vudu]

Rat's is still worse.  Maybe you should read it.

[animecyberrat]

well I wasn't really sure where this thread was gonna go but maybe it wasn't such a good idea.


I have dealt with a lot of **** most people wouldn't believe and I know that as hard as it is, sometimes confessing ones regrets and or guilt can be helpful. I myself am at a time in my life when all I have *is* time so I spend a lot of time thinking about everything, the past, the future, old friends, and everything life throws at me.

I usually come here for the same reason I play video games in the first place, to forget about life. But then sometimes you can't run from your problems and you have to face things head on. I am not one who throws my **** in the table and walks away, I am perfectly capable of going into discussions about anything I have done. There are some things though best left unsaid.


But since I started this I can be man enough to accept the consequences. And I can feel your pain there man, trust me I've seen/done things you wouldn't believe. Sorry if I opened something up here but if you need to say something go ahead I can be decent. Besides maybe I could offer some advice on how I deal with things. (not wanting to get into breaking the rules territory so I'll leave elaborations of this into private discussions)


I guess lately I just have been more prone to speak what's on my mind and not censor myself as much anymore.

[animecyberrat]

I think it is on this page.


http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.listAll&friendID=113950584&startID=309469134&StartPostedDate=2007-09-12%2020:35:00&next=1&page=2&Mytoken=C5226DFA-B14E-4394-BB5FA51388B4EFF952350804

[EasyCure]

Rat's is still worse.  Maybe you should read it.

Maybe its just me but that story wasnt that big of a deal. Every sh*tty school I've been in since middle grade has seen a handfull of guys beating up on the special ed kids. its sad really (cept the time i saw two of the special ed kids fighting each other out on the athletic feild. it wasn't a real fight, they were playing around immitating their favorite wrestlers. I only thought it was funny because of how well their impressions were, it was like i was watching a real WWE match!)

Let me elaborate on mine. I was about 4 or 5 years old and we were going to visit some family who'd just had a new born. The baby had only recently been released from the hospital after birth was only home for a few days by the time we went to visit. My mom had brought a few gifts for the baby and for the family and had me hold on to them all. We walk into the baby's room and gaze upon him, admiring the beautiful new member of the family and after a few minutes of standing around talking we left. I was still holding on to the plastic shopping bag we had brought the gifts in, which was now empty. I discarded it by hanging it on the corner of the baby's crib..

I honestly don't remember what happened next. I must of blocked it out, or maybe i was just too young to remember the full details about it. At least thats what i tell myself. I know I blocked it out because i can remember all the other details vividly. The room was small, the crib was placed near an open window on a nice sunny day. The bag was left on the right corner, closest to the window, it was a yellow bag from the supermarket nearby.. The wind must of picked up the bag and tossed it around until it landed where it did.

The only thing i remember after leaving that room is leaving their house. I remember everyone being really quiet, but maybe i just blocked out the crying. I didnt cry, i didn't understand what was going on at the time, but i did have this feeling of guilt come over me, i knew i had done something wrong.

We've never talked about it in my family. After the funeral, that aunt and uncle and their two other kids left the country after that. I haven't seen or heard from them since.

[animecyberrat]

that is a sad story my friend, and I can relate but I won't elaborate here. BTW, I re-read my blog post I linked to, not a good read best to stay out of that one.

[vudu]

Let's never speak of the incident again.  You just brought down the whole forum.

[EasyCure]

lol thanks for the warning. It is a sad story but i dont think about it too often. its not a secret really, i've told a few people about if that have been close enough to me. I was a kid and i didnt mean anything to happen, so i dont feel guilty or anything now

Let's never speak of the incident again.  You just brought down the whole forum.

uhm..

Rat's is still worse.  Maybe you should read it.

Look familiar?

And Easycure will totally domimate this thread.

Bustin was right

[animecyberrat]

one to cheer you up.



Remember that guy who ****** my sister. Well the rest of the story goes like this. See I initially wanted to kick his @$$ and be done with it. So I decide to let him know it's coming. Well thing is we both work for the same place and I'm kinda his boss at work so when I see him at work I give him a hard time all day long. His cousin is the store manager so she gets onto me and everyone starts taking sides. (I worked for Pizza Hut which is a magnet for drama) anyways he ends up getting fired for starting a fight at work.

A couple days go by and I am walking out the door with a pizza to make a delivery and there he is waiting for me by my car. He tosses the pizza bag onto the ground and basically makes like he wants to have it out right here right now. I am not stupid, I am in uniform and at work, I do not wish to lose my job (best job I have ever had BTW) so I turn him down and go inside to call the police. He follows me in the store and hits me anyways. I don't fight back ( a first for me) but let him hit me a couple times and everyone else breaks up the fight. The cop shows up and sits up both down to ask what happened. My friends back me up, his friends back him up and two conflicting stories drive the cop to agree not to file any charges but tells us to shake hands and be done with it. At this point he starts crying! I mean big bad ass comes in to start a fight and as soon as the cop shows up he breaks out into tears. Something about that didn't sit well with me.


A couple days latter I find out he just found out that night his girl was pregnant and his cousin, who was my boss and whom he lived with, was basically telling him he had to straighten up and take care of that kid. I felt sorry for the guy even though I should have hated him. This explains his show of emotions at the cop threatening to take him to jail. Anyways now he is unemployed and has a kid on the way. Beings that I was responsible partly for his losing his job I decide to make it up to him mostly cuz I love kids and know how hard it can me to bring one into the world.

So he is now selling the speakers and **** out of his car, which is really nice sound system, so he comes to pizza hut , where most his friends still work, and tries to sell his crap there. Having now had a change of heart about what he did to my sis, I agree to buy his speakers off him and sell them for him. I pay a pretty premium price even though I don't need them but he now has money and then I talk the boss into letting him come back if she agrees to put us on different schedules. Well I am training to be manager now so she says I can just make my own schedule and come and go as needed. We become friends again for a bit but then my stupid sister gets involved with another guy she had no business talking to so, one thing leads to another and I end up leaving her there and moving back with my parents. (we had been sharing an apartment with one of her friends up to this time)


Oh and the sister in this story is not the same on in the other story, I have three sisters just so you know. So you see I've done some good things in my life too.

[wandering]

I never memorized my multiplication table. At this moment I'm not sure what 7 times 8 is.

[Nick DiMola]

So when exactly did you kick his ass?

[animecyberrat]

the first time, before all the stuff at work. It was the day I found out.

[vudu]

I never memorized my multiplication table. At this moment I'm not sure what 7 times 8 is.

Fifty six.

[DAaaMan64]

I never memorized my multiplication table. At this moment I'm not sure what 7 times 8 is.

56?

damn you vudu!

[animecyberrat]

he probly cheated, used the calculator or something.

[Bill Aurion]

Seven hours late, guys...Who knows what important life-changing events involving the 7x8 multiplication could have already passed!?

[vudu]

he probly cheated, used the calculator or something.

No; I actually know my multiplication tables through twelve, thank you very much.

[animecyberrat]

I will take your word for it.

[vudu]

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[UltimatePartyBear]

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Fixed.

[EasyCure]

i knew we were all pretty much nerds around here but that is just... wow

[vudu]

Goddamn typo.

[animecyberrat]

Goddamn typo.

OR




I'm rubbing off on you. There it worked that time.

[animecyberrat]

Now that I got all that crap off my chest I think it is time for a happy story.


When I was 12 I met this girl and she was nice. The end.

[nickmitch]

I've been messing around with this chick who I don't really like all that much. I mean she's great and all, but I just don't see myself in a relationship with her. I get the feeling that she's way more in to me than I'm in to her, so I find it hard to break it to her. It's actually been a HUGE relief to me that she hasn't been calling/texting me lately.

Is this wrong?

[DAaaMan64]

I've been messing around with this chick who I don't really like all that much. I mean she's great and all, but I just don't see myself in a relationship with her. I get the feeling that she's way more in to me than I'm in to her, so I find it hard to break it to her. It's actually been a HUGE relief to me that she hasn't been calling/texting me lately.

Is this wrong?

Sounds like it might be, you need to get your feelings on the table.