I guess I can share my recent experience if it helps anyone. The short version is this, I moved to Nebraska to start a new life, get away from my old life and get into college, which I did. Some things from my past never would go away so I built up some anxiety and began experiencing some stress, so I started using the schools councelling center for help, talking to someone was nice for a while but then I got hooked on just wanting someone to talk to. So I kept going back even after we settled my anxiety. Then to make it worth going I dug up other stuff from my past and transferred things others went through into my own life to make it all sound more interesting. I also exaggerated some stuff because it's easy to do when you are trying to get a certain reaction. Anyways they wanted to put me on some medication, I tried different ones and they had negative side effects I won't bore anyone with.
Then I realized I was deteriorating, I was losing interest in everything, I changed my major/minor soo many times I lost count and I was dropping classes, adding classes, failing classes where before I was totally focused and getting mostly A's and B's. Going back to college after being out of school for ten years and having dropped out of high school meant I had some catching up to do anyways and for the first year it was just that, catch up. But I still maintained a decent enough GPA and kept going.
Last Halloween my counciler suggested I go to a Halloween party, anyways while there I realized some things that were wrong and I stopped taking the meds and canceled my appointments all. She panicked and sent me into a whirlwind of pain and misery that ended with me staying three days in a mental health clinic and ultimately getting banned from school and tresspassed from campus, including getting kicked out of my apartment and having to move in with my elderly aunt and uncle. Since then I got a proper full time job, transferred to a community college and began taking classes online through them to finish what I started.
it was a long road and I am not there yet but I am getting closer to stabalizing and getting things back the way they were. Well needless to say I had too much, I panicked and sold all my things, packed my van and moved to California, you know to go to Hollywood and get into film. I got there, realized I made a huge mistake and turned around came back and took another job. It was a wild ride, but in the end I think it was good for me to face my fears and realize that past is something we have to live with but we can't be haunted by it.
Do I suffer from depression, maybe I tend to have wild mood swings, but really I just need someplace to go to talk to someone. I began coming here because I have been reading this site's news forever and the forums are a place to vent. I think we all come here for similar reasons, to share ideas, to talk to like minded people with similar interests, and to get **** off our chest when we need to.
I have lost loved ones, friends, family, the woman I was engaged to, its hard to get over. Some to death, some to distance, and some to things that can't be explained. I am not entirely alone but I sometimes feel alone. That is what drew me to this forum, you guys act like people with real problems, some forums if you stray from the topic at hand they just ban you for going off topic. Some people act like their video games or toys or movies, whatever it happens to be is the world world. Yes we all want an escape but sometimes escaping can be bad sometimes you just need to talk it through.
Topic: Anyone else deal with depression or knows someone who does? (Read 35793 times)
