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Sleep paralysis; happened again, this time it was truly scary.
I'm on the phone with my girl, drifting off to sleep. Next thing I know I'm in the middle of a dream (I feel like there's more to it and I'm only remembering the middle..)
in this dream I'm with a cousin telling me about how I kept falling asleep at the wheel while I drove us home. I could've sworn I was dreaming about it but he assured me it was real. Next thing I know its happening again; I'm being woken up, in the middle of another sequence, by my cousin telling me to wake up and me being ale to unsnap out of it, like in my "dream" earlier behind the wheel.
Next thing I know/remember I'm in my room, dark, trying to wake up from this dream. My mind did, my body didn't. This next parts 90% real:
I'm laying beneath the covers trying my hardest to wake up and realize I'm going through the paralysis again. Only problem is my mind is fucking with me and produces a panic attack, or at least what I think one is because I never had it before.
Basically as I'm trying to let my body catch up my brain is feeding me fucked up thoughts and filling me withfears that I'm stuck this way forever. I can dart my eyes around my dark room but that's it. Soon I feel my fingers tingling and I can only assume I'm moving them. Then my neck slightly. But I still feel stuck; I pictured myself looking braid dead with my neck twisted unnatural looking and my fingers locked up in weird positions.
I'm able to move a hand for a second and knock part of the comforter away, at least I think so. Then my mind starts getting twisted. I start hearing noises and from the little bit of light shining in I see a figure at the food of my bed. I know its not real. I know its a mindgame caused by the hardshell guitar case I have upright at the foot of my bed being in front of a box car racer poster that appears to give a head and body. I know this but my brain starts fucking with me bad...
As what I can only describe as one of those drudge soldiers from theConduit is standing at the foot of my bed while I hear strange noises that aren't there, my mind starts making me think "what if I didn't move my hand? What if the covers are being pulled off telepathically by It?". That's when things got worse and I thought my body. Was sliding down the bed slowly and I'm frantically trying to move my muscles with no luck.
What I think a panic attack is sets in because now I'm struggling to breathe. I felt like this was it.. whether there was some real creature at the base of my bed, getting ready to do god know what to me, or I really wasn't going to "wake up" ever again.. I'd be fucked and that's how I felt...
Obviously i snapped out of it but in a cold sweat, while a warm sensation came over me.. probably blood rushing through my muscles causing that tingling sensation in my hands earlier. As I reached for my phone to notate this, I realize. My legs still weren't 100% and I could barely wiggle my toes...
Now I feel fine albeit with a headache.. god damn sleep paralysis!